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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 16:50:16 GMT

wud it do

yuh main its lyke i'm basicly gettin kicked out so no one prolly looks at thys anyway so i jus thought i would say good bye to the lyke 3 ppl that actually do look at thys if ya wanna hit me up on my cell or suttin ... dueces

Souljah

Monday, October 03, 2005

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 17:35:52 GMT

wud it do

yuh its ya boy souljah in tha xanguh yuh tha last entry was knia sad... sry bout that i was jus really sad i aint so sad no moe i mean its still there but not as bad i have learned somethyngs that have changed it alot... but yuh i jus have my really sad tymes and i'm sry to the gurl i love for tha xanguh entry that ya didn't lyke i wasn't really all togetha wen i wrote that... wow man lyfe has its ways of turnin against you and then fixin shyt all in tha same tyme... lol its all about tymin really gotta b willin to wait foe what u want... N i don't what i want n i'ma wait foe it cuz what i want iz the only thyng on thys earff worf wantin ya feel if ya eva ben inlove you will know what i mean... Love is lyke something no one can match or compare the feelin wiff i mean wen i am around the one i love its lyke i am on anotha world its lyke heaven walkin in the flesh its that amazin... I jus wish everyone could love lyke i do... wen thys gurl n me lock eye's its really lyke we are the only one's on the planet and nuttin else matta's she is jus lyke a dyme that i will neva hurt again... ("i'm sry for what i did")... i thynk sometymes that mistakes are meant foe a higher perpus then anyone know's about lyke i thynk god put mistakes in ppl's lyfe so they can grow moe knowledgable bc humans mess up but those who learn and grow turn into greats... lyke me i made a couple byg mistakes and i have learned from them and "i'm willin to spend the rest of my lyfe maken them up to you"-to the one i love... now don't thynk i'm tryna deny her by nawt sayin her name she jus ratha foe now ppl nawt know her actual name but all yall needa know iz i love her and she is awesome and amazing... If i could eva have one re do of my lyfe i dunno if i eva would bc i thank god foe all of my lyfe nawt jus the good tymes the good tymes came bc of the bad tymes i thynk ppl don't realize that alot and its nawt cool cuz dey blame god foe the bad and then wen it gets betta they don't even stop and thank him... now i aint here to judge you i'm jus sayin wat i feel iz true i'va done that to but i'm tryna get betta at it... if you don't got god beleive me yourl yfe isn't what it could be i know i myte nawt seem lyke a person who loves god but i do all tho here lately its ben hard foe me to even tell that... but i'ma work on it tho... i aint tryna b a preacha or nuttin jus a thug tryna sread a positive message i thynk we need moe of that i've ben threw alot n i mean god is the only thynk that makes sence worff servin nawt ya pistol nawt anythyng i had to learn that the hard way don't b lyke me... anyways enough about all that jus felt lyke i should say it so i did... man i neva had thys many thoughts goin threw my head its gettin hard to process thoughts and shyt and to top it off i'm startin to get wrytters block really bad... i hope i can get passed that bc if i can't rap i dunno what i will do its lyke my therapy
keeps me sane if ya eva had wrytters block hit me up and tell me what ya did so i can try it lol but i don't thynk that will work foe me tho... man i can't wait till thys weekend i'm goin back to misquite no one know's on what level of how much i love it there its lyke one of those places i feel at home i feel lyke my 2 bestfriends house iz moe of my home then my own place wich iz really bad foe my parents but who cares... man i feel so weird lyke my heart has thys weird feelin lyke its happy but a confussed happiness lyke almost if i'm confussd but at peace wit a couple stuff well foe the moment anyways i hope its lasts tho cuz its kina comferting... dayum thys past week has ben awesome but confussin but i thynk ova all it was the best thyng that could have happened and "i can't wait till you are done filin all the papers"-to my the gurl i'm inlove with... but i'm waitin its no ruch cuz u even said ya self its all about jus given it tyme... ok man if someone reads thys that don't know me don't thynk i'm some fuckin emo kid no offence to emo ppl i jus don't want ppl thynk i'm some freakish emo child... now that thats ben said anyways... if yall havn't heard that song maken memories of us by keith urban then you should or have me send it to you cuz thats really one of the best country song i have eva heard... but yuh i'ma go holla back at cha boy doe PLEASE leave some comments cuz no one hardly eva does so holla back at cha boy give me some homie love ya feel dueces

souLjah a.k.a. Ghetto Disciple

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 18:18:51 GMT

wud it do...

yuh well i had a otha entry but it was that apropreate so i took it out i thynk thats how u spell that word i thoguht i was done wit xanga but hell i'm nawt man yak now i hate my lyfe ryte now bc it seems lyke everythyng that could go wrong is findin away to go wrong i mean one thyng afta anotha... i'm inlove wit thys gurl and she does love me i geuss i really don't know what she feels foe me anymoe... i thought i knew but nope i geuss in then end she will b betta off wit out my shyt but i still hope we get back togetha cuz i miss her every single day some tymes i wish i jus didn't get affected and could b mellow lyke soemone i know iz... man all i wanna do iz hurry and b put in my grave cuz heaven is so much betta then earth and then i mean lyfe is so so so hard ryte now i don't wanna give up tho i jus wanna hurry and figa out what the purpus of all thys shyt is i mean its really hard wen the one you love doens't even know if she has any feelings foe u period its hard REALLY hard but hell i am maken it threw lyfe i shed tears wen needa... but don't thynk i'm lyke a fuckin phsyco tho i'm jus inlove and its true soemtymes love does hurt but it also keeps me alive most the tyme but yuh man i am so confussed on what to do i know i am willing to wait on her but the thyng is i thynk i will wait till die foe her and i know i can't do that...
"you know who you are I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 21:58:48 GMT

yuh well today has sucked in ways but its all good i jus dunno wud to do anymoe... my heart feels lyke its gettin ripped apart peace by peace its nawt cool... its lyke i have a heart but its gettin cut up slowly... i was listen to that song by papa roach its called lyke scars its a really awesome cuz its so true man i wish i could jus fix all thys shyt i can help all my friends why can't i help myself it suxx... wow last nyte i couldn't sleep i rolled around in my bed alot it wasn't cool i thought hell was gonna freeze ova befoe i got to sleep... man then i got up and went and walked out side and that didn't help i had thys one guy lookin at me funny lyke he wanted to kick my ass and that pissed me the fuck off... man fuck thys xanguh shyt thys will b my last entry so holla back at cha boy ya wanna tawk to me then i m me or suttin dueces

Monday, September 12, 2005

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 23:44:54 GMT

wud it do,
dayum today ben some kina crazy lyke mad doe ca lyke ppl b lyke maken me sad it isn't cool. I geuss i jus want all my home boys and all my home gurls to have a good lyfe so bad sometymes i foeget about mine bein good. But yuh today has ben pretty klean doe i met thys one chic she's so beautiful and pimpin. But besides that today has jus ben ok but foe real. I had some shyt go down wit my cousin it was my fault tho... SRY cuz you know i got mad luh foe ya doe. O shyt man i know i keep sayin thys but yall needa know I O U mixtape is out its my home boys mixtape that he did foe his gurl its all love songs of him rappin so come on ya know ya want some info about that shyt its so klean. But anyways man today has had a couple bad and a couple good i'm hopin at ta end of ta day tha good can ova come tha bad foe real. Man yall jus don't know how much it suxx to have to see yur friends sad foe me its lyke a knyfe in my heart i want all my friends to have ta best lyfe they can and some don't and that makes me so SAD. I thynk my real weekness and prolly one of my only ones is that i really do care to much about otha ppl and nawt enough about me lol well it aint that funny. Well thats all foe yalls crusty selfs!!!

well i'm out dueces!!!!!

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 10:12:57 GMT

wud it do

dayum i am here at my nigguh riches house and chillin he went to bed so i'ma do tha xanguh shyt ya feel. Dang lyfe is so crazy but i'm finally startin to get urr-re thyng straigtin out and my muzik is lyke my fuckin lyfe even moe now. Oh shyt me and young duece wrote a song called cold hearted watch out foe that shyt its gon b so klean. My nigguh's lyke i ben sayin king bunny's I O U mixtape has DROPED go cop that shyt foe realz hit me up and i'll tell ya info about it. But yuh man it feels so good to be ova here wit my nigguh rich and jus b able to hang out some where besydes me house bc i mean dayum i love it here. O man the song me and young duece wrote goes hard my nigguh's foe real yall gon b amazed at thys nigguh foe a starta he's pretty throw doe. Man i do tawk about rappin alot i'm sry if yall don't lyke it its jus lyke thats my whole lyfe and i geuss i thynk about it so much that i tawk about it to much at tymes i dunno most ppl tell me i tawk about it to much. O well but yuh man yall should really comment cuz no comments is gettin to me lol PLEASE leave me some love cuz you know i luh all yall i gots lyke real mad love so please comment hoes!!!! lol dayum i am changin so much its weird the derection my lyfe is taken but i lyke it doe but yuh i myte loose even moe friends cuz of it but its all pimpin doe. So hows lyfe treatin all yall my lyfe is finally workin it self out doe but yuh i'ma go doe so holla back at cha boy... Dueces!!!!

souLjah a.k.a. Ghetto Disciple

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 21:38:37 GMT

my favorite verse i eva wrote tell me what yall thynk...

[verse 1]
i am what u call a unborn king i am on tha rise,don't act lyke you didn't know thys or b surprised
i hold the rap game on my sholda,let me bring it back to the streets befoe thys thyng gets pushed ova
yall mc's commin out today don't even rememba what a hardcoe nigguh is
i would give you a gat but you prolly don't even know where tha chrigguh is
whateva happen to tawkin about tha hood,it seems to me that yall all have ben blinded
or maybe you have lost that old agression and its hard to find it,so i'ma turn it up a notch
i don't even care who i have to piss off,but i really do feel lyke all you mc's have really went soft
why u gotta let the industry hold you down, have you forgotten what its lyke to be undaground

leave me some love!!!!!

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 23:31:10 GMT

wud it be

dayum i really havn't done shyt wit thys thyng in a little whyle cuz well no one reads thys shyt so i don't really get the point. But i do wanna some suttin and thats if ya wanna tawk shyt about me den say it to me don't tell me to acted whyte in a comment or tawk shyt on my chattabox. Dayum its lyke urr-re body can't except that i gots suttin that maken me happy i don't get it its fucked up. Sry if i'm nawt as cheerful as i should be its jus i'm gettin sick of the bullshyt of lyfe. Dang i sound lyke a little emo bytch no offense to the ppl who lyke emo n all that don't b lyke he's hates us or some shyt. But yuh yall should really comment in thys damn thyng bc i mean it would b pimpin to have comments cuz no one eva comment in thys bytch. lol maid it sound lyke it was a slut... Anyways man shyt has ben poppin wit my muzik i'm slowly gettin betta at muzik and recordin and shyt its gon b so klean wen the Unborn King vol.1 Mixtape is out i'm shyt a brick. But yuh Lyke i said befoe tha king bunny I O U mixtape is out you should cop that shyt i m me foe info on how to purchase.Well i'ma go so holla back at cha boy... Dueces!!!!!

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 09:28:25 GMT

wud it do nigguh's

yo yeah foe shoe i aint that happy anymoe its lyke i dunno i was foe realz happys last nyte but now its gone, Damn its lyke a got someone fuckin throw darts at my heart i dunno i just am gettin at a braken point. Shyt why can't ladies b cool wit me how i am. I mean if ya notice my new lay out its has the chorus from a song and damn that fits me so much. Bc ppl always b hatin and dey don't even know me. But yeah it just pisses me off bc lyfe has been kina crazy hurr lately its lyke urr-re tyme suttin good gets stared a get shyt and it goes back down. And den my moms is gettin really depressed again and i love my moms so its kina hard to watch her and all i can do it bytch at doctors to help her... . Man i wish i could change my lyfe and how its goin ryte now bc i need some help. Damn i don't wanna sound lyke a little bytch or nuttin bc i aint. But damn sometymes i wish i could finda a gurl that would nawt fuckin freak out wen she know i rap and shyt its nawt tha best thyng. Thys kina shyt is wat maken me thynk about becomin a crypin nigguh again. I mean at least dem ppl in tha gang gave a shyt about me and didn't do spit on me and shyt. Damn i mean i aint tryin to dis ya if ya my true homie's but dem ppl's that b hatin jus cuz how i tawk or what i love is so fucked up i hate it. Shyt xanguh is pretty pimpin afta all i really didn't want one at furst but now its all pimpin nigguhs. LoL... But yeah damn i just wish i could get sighed bc den i could show ppl why i am so serious about rappin and shyt. O damn speakin of rappin and shyt yo yall needa b on tha look out YOUNG DUECE is comming soon the newest memba to southern hospatality family is gon b recordin a track tonyte at my house. So yall best b keepin a good look out foe that shyt ya feel. O and King Bunny has his I O U mixtape dont and if ya want info on that i m me and i can get you details on that shyt foe shoe my nigguh's. well i'm outta hurr lyke a fuckin hoe afta a long nyte on the street corna
holla back at cha boy... dueces!!!!

Friday, September 02, 2005

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 02:27:06 GMT

Wud it is
yo nigguh's i b so happy i havn't ben lyke thys in along tyme its mad crazy. But its straight pimpin foe shoe man lyfe it mad crazy but in tha end ya will go threw bad tymes but the good will always ova come tha bad even if ya can't see it. But foe shoe nigguh's yall just don't know i am so happy i thynk i actually am gettin some emotion back. yall just don't know how hard it is to nawt feel ya heart. But today did kina suck but its all pimpin bc lyke i said tha good ova comes tha bad. Ya know you neva know how lyfe will end up bc shyt happens but the ppl who can move on will b awesome foe real. Man i love thys song i'm workin on its kina sad but its so pimpin i'ma wryte the furst verse and so PLEASE comment bc no one eva does cept lyke 2 ppl mainly and that suxx foe me... i mean please leave me some LOVE. Bc i love all yall,yall all my nigguh's foe real yalls my homies foe lyfe. O shyt man steve nigguh man i can't wait to see you thys decemba bc its gon b so krunk. Gosh rappin is gettin pretty awesome you ppl best keep on da look out foe my mixtape UNBORN KING VOL.1 watch out and keep da look out foe young duece he gon b krunk nigguh thys guy is straight thggin its so klean iight well thats my xanguh shyt so hit me up lata iight... holla back at cha boy... COMMENT!!!!!